(As I started to record this following experience, I realized I had previously accessed past memories but didn’t realize what they were. In time, I will also include these accounts.)
I am fascinated at the thought that I am a culmination of energy that is infinite and at the same time, my memory (at the moment) is so finite. After reading an experience from Same Soul, Many Bodies, a door flew open in my awareness.
Author Brian Weiss had regressed a client (who was also a doctor) into a past life and he shares how his client’s present life has changed. In our last conversation he admitted that when the other medical staff is not looking, he’ll place his hands on the area of the patient’s body that needs healing and feels the surge of energy he remembers from centuries ago.
So, why not access my memory, re-member who I AM and ask myself to open to information, feelings and awarenesses that will assist me in my present? How many “past” experiences can I access? So I decided to find out!
This begins my formal exploration into accessing my memory of experiences, in whatever that meant!
The next morning I unplugged the phone, became comfortable in my meditation position and set the CD player to one hour of gamma frequency sound through my headphones. After a period of self-relaxation and calming my conscious mind, I directly asked my SELF in its infinite memory to bring forth any information that would assist me to more clearly understand my present life.
. . . I waited
. . . and I waited
. . . and my conscious mind got impatient
. . . and then, although somewhat difficult to initially understand, I felt leaves around me. I was in a jungle. I had very little clothing on, only a string cloth around my waist and some objects around my neck. I was a small man with medium brown skin sitting on the side of a bushy hill. I could see far out into the distance onto the lush hills/mountains. In my right hand was a spear that I knew I killed small animals with, particularly boars.
This lead me to understand that I (we) had an intimate relationship with the plants, their medicinal as well as their poisonous uses. Although I was alone, I sensed I was part of a group of people or tribe. We used the medicines from the plants to help people when they became ill. Certain mixers were used from specific plants depending on their taste, especially their bitterness.
Question: What about fear? How does he interpret fear in his world? I found this to be a fascinating answer.
His fear was based on fight or flight responses. It was purely instinctual and he didn’t question his decisions. Most remarkably while exploring this, I could feel that there was no concept or understanding of the self-deprecating fears or judgements within him that are so often associated with fear in this world. He had no concepts of, “I’m not good enough, I’m unworthy, I’m in lack of . . . , etc.” Due to my ability to feel his experience with fear, it was in this moment I became aware and felt the layers of pre-programmed fear within my current energy that was non-existent for him. This was remarkable for me to feel.
Although I continued to sit within the bushes, a window of understanding opened regarding the treatment of the people with medicinal plants when they were ill. What struck me was that if a person dies there was acceptance from the rest of the tribe in feeling, that’s the way the gods wanted it and that’s what was meant to be. There was a living of life and an acceptance of death.
Question: How can this life assist me with my understanding of my current life?
By this point I had begun to feel some remarkable differences in the way that we lived our lives. Then 3 clear words came through: Pure, Instinctual, Knowing. This man lived in bare feet, from the land and trusted his inner guidance which was very instinctual for him, without question.
Question: How am I supposed to translate this, pure instinctual knowing?
Both of us had entered our chosen life times with purpose, within a blueprint to experience our lives to the best of our understanding and ability. He was doing a great job at being.
This is when the questions started to be asked of me: Am I living in alignment with MY pure instinctual knowing? Am I fully accepting my life’s purpose? Am I allowing any part of me to doubt that? These questions showed me how complicated I have made my life, how much power and energy I give to thoughts that are fabrications of fear and ultimately how much I trust myself and the Universe.
(more to experiences to be recorded!)
